If they could see me now, that little gang of mine.

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MOTHERFUCKER

After hearing the clip of Jennifer Hudson as Effie, I'm looking forward to seeing the Dreamgirls movie after all.

I think Beyonce is a tremendously talented entertainer, and she's been an inspiration to me, but I was worried she wouldn't have chops for a musical. Well, maybe it will be effective for her to be outshone.

I was excited for the Dreamgirls movie until I saw this.

I feel bad for the girl who's playing Effie, there's no way a 25-year-old newcomer could do this.

I know I couldn't sing a part like that. Wow.

I really love the clothes I got to wear in this video.

I can't believe my 3rd album is coming out next month! It's coming out the 12th, I hope you will all support it!　　Also, "Lovely Complex," my first movie role, will be coming out on the 15th! Please go see the movie, not just because I'm in it, but because it is a great comedy and romance! All of you who have a summer romance should take your dates to it. ^-^

OMG, tomorrow is my birthday!

I almost forgot! >>

I'm doing another TV opener!

This one is for an anime called Kiba. The song is called Sanctuary, and it was a lot of fun to sing! ^-^

Kiba premieres April 2nd. I hope everyone will watch it and support me!

I'm sorry I haven't been around everyone, I've just been working on my latest single, Sunrize!

I can't believe that this is my 10th single! I'm very excited!

10th Sg「Sunrize」
リリース日：2006年03月29日(水）
品番：SRCL-6236
価格：￥1,223(tax in)
初回限定仕様：スリーブケース仕様

I can't wait for spring to come, can you?

The more I think about it, the more I wonder if I even want to go to the show tonight at all.

I want to use my free time before I start doing radio promotions next month wisely.

If it just makes me cry again, I don't want to go.

Tonight was a really bad night.

FIRST, I didn't get Rising Star. I wouldn't have minded if some one else got it, some one who worked as hard as me, but some visual band got it. Now I'm not saying visual bands are bad or anything, but every single I've ever put out debuted in the Oricon Top 10. I had a new album and it was high on the charts for weeks. Not only that, my song has been used in video games and on TV, and not only to I exercize my voice, I am also a dancer. I am also achieving a 4.0 grade average. Furthermore, I am a face that Japan recognizes, much more than some zombie band. I'm not saying they're bad, but I really deserved that award and I was heartbroken that I didn't get it.

SECOND, I dealt with it really bad and ran to the bathroom to cry. I really wish I hadn't. I just work really hard and I feel like nobody even notices I exist in the community. I even showed lots of cleavage in my campaign pictures and it didn't work. I don't get it. ~.~

THIRD, I met Uruhasan who was very nice to me and got me my make up and said he would be my date. Except when I came back Takanori-senpai pitched a fit, and when we were swapping keitai #s he GRABBED ME, THREW ME OVER HIS SHOULDER and DRAGGED ME INTO THE CAR and when I wouldn't stop YELLING he left me on a STREET CORNER.

Well, senpai, it'll interest you to know that Uruhasan is my date for tomorrow night, whether you approve of it or not. I used to think you were protective because you cared about my safety, but if that was it, why would you leave me in the middle of nowhere at 11:30 at night???

Whew! Things sure have been busy lately for me lately! ^-^ Yesterday my concert DVD, "Road to Make Progress" went on sale. Please buy it! ^-^ Saturday I'm going to perform at Kyoto Bunkyou University, if you're in the area come see me!

Most excitingly, my newest single, "Get Wild" is an update on the awesome TM Network song! I've been having sooo much fun working with TK-san!

Touring is great! ^-^ I hope you'll come and see me, ne~!

I'm touring~~! I'm so excited! In case you haven't seen the information online, here it is:

大好評で終えた、昨秋の学園祭ツアーから一年、今年も学祭に玉置が出演！！
歌手兼現役学生の玉置成実が今年も盛り上げます！

★NAMI TAMAKI"学園祭TOUR Vol.2"

・TBC学院サマーフェスティバル2005
　日時：8月29日（月）　開場/開演　17時/17時30分
　会場：宇都宮文化会館大ホール
　発売日：一般発売無し（在校生・次年度入学予定高校生のみ入れます。）
　料金：無料

・文教大学情報・国際学部「第21回饗塔祭」
　日時：10月8日（土）　開場/開演 17時/18時
　会場：学内体育館
　発売日：9月9日（金）
　料金：前売り\1,000 当日\2.000（学内・一般共）
　お問い合わせ：文教大学情報・国際学部第21回饗塔祭実行委員会(0424-51-4204)

・大阪学院「第44回岸辺祭」
　日時：10月23日（日）　開場/開演 15時30分/16時30分
　会場：大阪学院大学体育館
　発売日：プレイガイド8月下旬
　学内販売10月11日（火）～13日（木）11時～14時30分
　料金：一般\2,000 学内\500
　お問い合わせ：06-6381-8438

★and more

So I really got in trouble for attending the Buck-Tick party. I was found out, and I got read the riot act by my manager. Then my parents, first together then once each privately. I'm embarrassed more than I'm mad. I know they're just looking out for me. It would be a scandal if people thought I was hanging around people like Buck-Tick and Luna Sea. They would want to know what I could possibly have to do with men the age of my father. They would assume it is inappropriate, and that would signal baibai Nami, the sweet schoolgirl next girl, everyone's little sister, even if most of the people who go to her concerts go to see her abnormally flat chest rather than hear her voice or see her practiced dance moves.

I understand the risk, but I want to go out and have fun, too. I know it looks bad for my image to be hanging out with a bunch of adults, mostly men, but being around other women, and girls my age, the atmosphere is too tense and competetive. We'd be fighting for attention and stabbing each other in the back. I know that my friends from school whisper about me. I know if there was some girl in my class who had gotten a contract with Sony I would probably treat her badly too, maybe not because I hated her but that's how everyone else acted.

They keep telling me I need to make sacrifices for my work. I'm fine with that, but I want to be myself, too. I want to make friends. It's one thing to be likes because you have a cute image, but it's another to be liked because you're a nice, friendly person. I shouldn't have to sacrifice one for the other... should I?

I had such a good time at the party last night~~~! I got to dance with Sakurai-san, and I met a very pretty Odile ballerina and then we wrestled. And Takanori-senpai and Gackt-san got high and laid around on the grass. And there were fireworks~! And that guy who groped my chest at my part apologized to me o.O;

I even managed to sneak back to my apartment without getting in trouble! Lucky me~~~!

Mine's a pink one.

It isn't exactly what Becky-san wears, but still, it is what I'm wearing to the party. ^-^

After this I decided it would be best to ban anonymous comments. Whoever it was wanted to be helpful, but it's still worrisome.

Even though after this I became worried about maybe just keeping it friends only. The prospect makes me sort of sad, though. ._.

Shiina-sensei, if you can read this, I have been practicing hard!

Time to do my morning routine! Let's dance!

Sometimes is never quite enough
If you're flawless, then you'll win my love
And don't forget to win first place
And don't forget to keep that smile on your face

Be a good boy, try a little harder
You've got to measure up
Make me prouder

How long before you screw it up?
And how many times do I have to tell you to hurry up?

With everything I do for you
The least you could do is keep quiet

Be a good girl, you gotta try a little harder
That simply was not good enough
To make us proud

I'll live through you
I'll make you what I never was
'Cause if you're the best then maybe so am I
Compared to him, compared to her
I'm doing this for your own damned good
What's the problem
Why are you crying

Be a good boy
Push a little farther now
That wasn't fast enough
To make us happy

We love you
Just the way you are
If you're perfect

I always thought Gackt was so cool, too. .___.

Last night I watched Chicago for the millionth time. I think Catherine Zeta Jones and Renee Zellwinger are absolutely lovely in that movie. And who knew those stars could sing? I think someday I'd like to be in a musical like that. I love to dance and sing, but I'd have to learn to act! I wouldn't want to be in a movie that turned out to be a joke to everyone. Maybe someday if I decide to retire from being a popstar, I could be in a Japanese run of Chicago. I think I'd want to play Velma just because her part has more dancing, and I love dancing. Then again, Roxie has all the great songs!

I always cry at the part when the Romanian lady is executed. Don't you think that the death sentence is barbaric? And she seemed like the only one who even cared that she killed some one. She was the only one who wasn't guilty.

Chiye gave me a bottle of mace in case anyone tries to grope me at a party again. I haven't told my parents or my manager because they don't like me going to parties anyway and if I told them I wouldn't be allowed to. ~_~